this blog belongs to me, what is here is for mine to keep,
memories which i want to preserve, to keep,to cherish,
and to love, feast your eyes on my tales, but warn you i do dare,
to be honest,to criticise and say what i desire,. my life is unveiled,
exposed, to you...
[about moi].
this garden belongs to cilliness
Age:`18
Born in:`Singapore
Grew up in:`Philippines
[loves]
`to dance
`to dream
`to draw
`to cheer
`to eat beef, potatoes and tomatoes
`to listen to music
`outdoor activites
`my family
`my friends
`Clique 5 + one guy
`Teddy! x]
[Searching for]
`True Love
`the real me
`peace and rest
[The threads of my net]
.im a girl who nobody knows.
.nobody knows the real me.
.nobody knows who i really am.
.living another person's life.
.a soul in another body.
.wanting to break free.
.like a butterly tangled in a net.
.i never dared to break free.
.afraid of rejection.
.always wearing a mask to fit in.
.so stressed up.
.i want my life back.
.one thing i am sure of.
.i love my family.
.love them more than i love myself.
.i love teddy, oh yes i do.
.miss my old friends.
.miss the memories.
.miss my old life.
.miss the old times.
.when i was free.
.when i could let my hair down.
.when i could be just me.
.torn butterfly.
dont leave me [alone again]
[people in moi net.]
[links]
Adele
AiZat
Annabelle
AqhARi
BenEdiCt
cHaRmAiNeX
Cheng Earn
CheRine
EuGene
HaFidZ
HuiShi
JaNAnI
Janice-LiLing
Jillian
Ji ShEng
Joel
Ju Lin-GreenAngel*
KoOnz
Kt
LyU-sis*
Marcus
MayguSs
MelIssA*
MelIsSaLiNg
NeLsoN
RoNg Hua-Uncle
RongYao
Sarah
Stephanie-YanLing
WanQian
WeiJiE
YiBiN
Zuraida
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[moi]
Monday, June 26, 2006
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| hello everyone! haha. finally i can update my blog. been busy lah. sorry. haha. ok. i shall blog about my so-called holiday. june 18 [sunday] woke up early.prepared. had breakfast. went to the ferry terminal with my family and grandparents. waited for my aunt, my two cousins and uncle. when they finally arrived the queue was damn long. haha. luckily it was moving fast. the ferry ride was quite fun. haha. fell asleep a few times eventhough it was only an hour's ride. the sky was cloudy when we got there. shit. long wait at the immigration. took the bus to the resort. had to wait a while before we could check in. so we walked around the lobby. saw some handicrafts. real neat. there was an arcade, a mini mart, dvd/vcd rental, spa booth and a couple of souvenier shops. did i spell that correctly? when we inally got to the villa, we were starving. we had chicken pies and sheperd's pie for lunch. yummy. love the sheperd's pie. haha. we wanted to go and tan but the sun could not be seen at all! argh! so my bros went instead and i stayed at the villa sewing my cross-stitch while watching tv. =] about late noon, my aunt, sis and i walked to mana mana, a restaraunt located near the beach to check out their menu. food is cheaper than hotel food. oh yeah. the food in the hotel are like twice the price here! a can of beer costs 9 bucks! wth right! daylight robbery! we went to the 'kelong', which is withing the resort's compound, for dinner. it was more like a chi restaurant. no stingray! shit asss. argh. but the food was alright. i was pretty hungry. haha. price is more reasonable than the hotel's, obviously. night, we watched a soccer math, had some beer, did some cross-stitching, lost the needle. so stupid right. haiz. then went to sleep around 1 am. june 19 [monday] the adults went to the market to buy some stuff. only my mom was around and the cousins. we had left over pies from yesterday. it was rainging. so boring. so we watched tv and stuff. later on after the rain subsided, we wanted to take a walk around and eat at mana mana. so i went over to lock the other villa. however, the key got stuck, i tries to get it out but in the end, i broke the key. the key got stuck in the lock. amazing. as i stayed at the villa to watch the repairman my sis and leon, my bro went to mana mana to buy pizza. yummy. went swimming. was able to tan, a little. did some swimming. the pool was awesome. love the design. forgot to take photo of it though. shit. bethany, my cousin, was really good at swimming. she's only 6 and she has built up a pretty good stamina. i am amazed. haha. she's fun to play with in the pool. =] we swam till it was almost dark. had bbq for dinner. one thing i'll sure rem. never leave the bbq-ing to my dad. the kitchen is fine, not bbq. had, fish, otah, more fish, chicken, then had stingray. finally had my stingray but it wasn't that good. i am still craving for stingray!!!!!! need to go to marche or someting. their stingray is pretty good. luckily i had some beef and chicken briyani before dinner. haha. had more beer. aunt, sis and i watched desp housewives, grey anatomy and scrubs. pretty hilarious. haha. we stayed up till around 2 am. yawnz. june 20 [tuesday] sis and i woke up later than the rest. hehe. had porridge for breakfast. eek. had fish and sayote. luckily the fish was fried fish not steamed. not too bad. we had an 'adventure' walk in the rain around the resort. wanted to walk through the jungle walk BUT swarms of mosquitoes just rushed out from the trees and bushes and attacked us! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sowe quickly got out of walk and went to the nearest hut. applies some medicated oil which could work as a mosquitoe repellent. then we went to another hut further away from the walk. it was safer there. we chatted there for a while. the kids sang some songs. went to the playground. then mom sis and i brought the kids to the arcade. had a load of fun playing the football game. so exciting! and i am such a horrible goal keeper. haha! shoot some hoops. quite fun. haha. it was lunch time. sis and i stayed back to order some souveniors to be done while mom brought the kids back. after lunch we went to swim. only a teeny weeny peek of sun. then it started raining. argh. so swam a few laps. enjoyed the view. the beach is awesome but i didn't walk down. why? sandflies. that's why. oh well. had fun swimming. =] but i am not tan enough. hmph. =/ later we switched to another pool where there is a slide for the kids. quite fun. wanted to go to the sauna, but they ran out of towels. argh. so pissed. haiz. so we just kept swimming and swimming and swimming till the mosquitoes came out to feed. ugh. dinner was boring again. more fish, otah, and some weird soggy veges. ugh. after dinner. another round of beer, gin and peanuts. haha. can't really rem what we did. maybe i was tipsy that's why. hehehe. june 21 [wednesday] woke up early. packed my stuff. went out and saw the darn sun was out and the sky was clear. shit asss! hmph! so i quickly had my breakfast. waited for my sis. rushed to the pool, tanning oil applied, laid down and tan...ahhh.....but i only have an hour to tan. hmph. 5 mins before lunch time i went to take a quick swim. duno when i'll get into a pool again. haha. had a quick lunch. the same old stuff again. ugh. don't want to eat fish anymore! excep stingray and fish and chips and shishamo. =] made sure we had everything. had another can of beer. checked out, waited at the lobby for the bus, played some more arcade games. haha =] oh did i mention at the lobby, there are two ponds on either side of the entrance? with koi fish! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!! and their mouth are freakin huge! disgusting! my uncle placed his finger in and the entire sch of fish swam to him and sucked his finger! eeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!! im never doing that and never will i touch them! no way!!!! in the ferry, i was feeling a little sick. i don't usually get sea sick, but duno why this time i had it. so i had some preserved mandarin peel. my sis was kinda uhmm....mad...taking of all sorts of things. weird............ hahahahahahahaha anyway. glad to be back to singapore. i could msg my teddybear again. hehehe. =] i missed him a lot ok. everywhere i went, everything i did, i wished he was there with me. =] rushed through csa project. had some problems. no one really cared.why? cuz csa sucks. big time. been getting some of my grades back.... accounts: B (surprisingly) marketing: A (another surprise) pom: B (cannot stand the teacher) csa: E (can actually get D but..i mixed up the last qns. argh!) nervous about my econs! yikes! i have stopped working for the mean time. but there will be times where i need to do replacement work. only one or 2 days in a month. got my last month's pay. hehe. can cover most of my shopping spree expense. come one, i don't shop that often. so this treat comes only...ermm....once very 2 years? if i can manage. hahaha. lucky i have commission. haha. =] been doing doing bits of cross-stitching while listening to my air supply cd. my form of relaxation. =] wanted to read actually, but have no book in mind. any nice recommendations? i like fantasy/ mythical, romance, horror (the best), classics, anything. so if you have any, pls leave a tag. thank you. =] hmm..what else..oh yeah. today is swee siong's bday!!! haha HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SWEE SIONG! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! WWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! =] haha. annabelle and huishi went to get a cake for him. we celebrated his bday during our break before csa. haha.he was happy. =] i felt guil;ty i didn't go on sat. sorry. wasn't feeling well. and now i am having menstrual cramps. argh. i don't usually have them. duno why im having it now. haiz. been enduring it the whole day. the pain................................................. =[ oh. i have been eating loads of durian nowadays. thanks to my grandpa. he bought 19 durians from the seller nearby. and i had no choice but to help him carry them. got a few scratches. not serious. he sure knows how to pick durians just by smelling them. the seller himself was amazed by his skill. i just stood nearby, watched them, then carried the durians when he's done. haha. then today, my uncle brought more durians. oh goodness. this is why i seldom eat durians. i only eat when they are around cuz i know by the amount they buy, i can get sick of them in one day. but hey do you know that durains are high in protein? yes they are. and they are pretty heaty too. so rem to drink plenty of water boys and girls! and the elderly. =] alright. this is all for tonight. shall try to update soon. going to watch desperate housewives! tc people! =] =ch!lz= cille thought for the day why don't we poly students have holiday today (youth day) ? we are still youths. youth age range from teens to around 20 plus. hmph. not fair. i bet those jc students enjoyed their holiday huh. hmph. = i hope to catch you with my net before you leave mi 3:59 AM |
butterfly [dreams]
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