this blog belongs to me, what is here is for mine to keep,
memories which i want to preserve, to keep,to cherish,
and to love, feast your eyes on my tales, but warn you i do dare,
to be honest,to criticise and say what i desire,. my life is unveiled,
exposed, to you...
[about moi].
this garden belongs to cilliness
Age:`18
Born in:`Singapore
Grew up in:`Philippines
[loves]
`to dance
`to dream
`to draw
`to cheer
`to eat beef, potatoes and tomatoes
`to listen to music
`outdoor activites
`my family
`my friends
`Clique 5 + one guy
`Teddy! x]
[Searching for]
`True Love
`the real me
`peace and rest
[The threads of my net]
.im a girl who nobody knows.
.nobody knows the real me.
.nobody knows who i really am.
.living another person's life.
.a soul in another body.
.wanting to break free.
.like a butterly tangled in a net.
.i never dared to break free.
.afraid of rejection.
.always wearing a mask to fit in.
.so stressed up.
.i want my life back.
.one thing i am sure of.
.i love my family.
.love them more than i love myself.
.i love teddy, oh yes i do.
.miss my old friends.
.miss the memories.
.miss my old life.
.miss the old times.
.when i was free.
.when i could let my hair down.
.when i could be just me.
.torn butterfly.
dont leave me [alone again]
[people in moi net.]
[links]
Adele
AiZat
Annabelle
AqhARi
BenEdiCt
cHaRmAiNeX
Cheng Earn
CheRine
EuGene
HaFidZ
HuiShi
JaNAnI
Janice-LiLing
Jillian
Ji ShEng
Joel
Ju Lin-GreenAngel*
KoOnz
Kt
LyU-sis*
Marcus
MayguSs
MelIssA*
MelIsSaLiNg
NeLsoN
RoNg Hua-Uncle
RongYao
Sarah
Stephanie-YanLing
WanQian
WeiJiE
YiBiN
Zuraida
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[moi]
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
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| hey hey!!!! yes yes. why the hell do i have a blog if i don't blog often? can't blame me. my mom does not want my bros to use the com or else they won't do their hw. haiz. problem of having younger brothers. reminds me of chong wei. he doesn't do his work either, always playing com games. tsk tsk. haha ok. i'll try to rem what has happened the past month? good luck to me. july 26 [wednesday] stayed back pretty late in sch. finishing up accounts project. typed them into the com.i hate that subject. killing my brain! argh. but we fnally finished it. im so proud of chong wei. he did the qns 3 which i couldn't even understand! i wonder how i go a b for my accounts. haiz... oh and today, edwin talked pretty much. i think he's beginning to open up and not shy aound the 3 of us, adele, sarah and i. haha. and he's like another cw. blurr blurr. but he is english speaking and cw is chinese speaking. ying and yang. hahaha. now my bro is listening and singing to backstreet boys' 2nd album. i kinda miss their songs. then it reminded me of the first time i come to know about bsb. i was very young that time. sis and i swas watching tv with our parents in their room. then all of us fell asleep. in the middle of teh night i heard some noise. i woke up, saw some cute guys on tv. watched their video 'get down'. so hott. haha. i watched till the video was over. remembered their name.switched off the tv. went back to sleep.zzzz........hahaha. july 25 [tuesday] stayed back to do accounts. roughly wrote them on rough paper. we spent so much time understanding the qns. argh. then derrick and cw went to help us get drink. but they didn't return for a long time. so i went to check cheers. not there. 1st ave no there. canteen, there. eating. bloody hell. but atleast they did not forget our drinks. hahaha. =] july 24 [monday] argh! we had mock test for csa! and i didn't know!!! argh!!! screw csa. i hate csa lah. i admit im a com dumme. stop torturing me! people hire me for the customer service i provide and marketing strategies. i do not want to be involved with coms! well, simple excel or ms word stuff i could. no designing of web pages pls. unless you want it on paper and ask someone else to turn it into dreamweaver shit. hahaha. =] July 23 [sunday] weeee! teddy and i have been together for 8 months!!! wooopeee!!! haha. both of us are really happy. =] ok. this sunday, jan, shabibah and i went to celebrate mel's and fariha's bday. fariha had to leave early because she has chem tuition.she's a busy, hard working girl. haiz. so we met at woodlands mrt station. JANANI was late. as usual and she said i would be late. hah! you're wrong girl! i mean african queen. hahaha. wah and mel loved their girfts. haha. glad you do! a lot of work and sweat was put into it. got wah a crop cardi from wh and a spag top from edc. mel recived a belt,a pai of black raisins earrings, a hand painted eggshell from the lime flea market (not cheap), and a paris bijoux handphone chain (something like mine). mel has more stuff cuz an additional party,my sis, contributed too. wah, your stuff are not cheap either ok. we wanted to et mos. but jan hates mos. yoshinoya. but jan hates it too. argh. so mafan. haha. so we ended up at pizza hut. it was a big mistake. THE SERVICE IN CAUSEWAY POINT PIZZA HUT SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO SMILES ON THE WAITRESSES FACES. ALL LOOK LIKE AH LIANS AND AH BENGS, INCLUDING THE MANAGER. ALL HAVE THE HECK CARE ATTITUDES OF AH LIANS AND AH BENGS. ONE BLOODY SHORT PONY-TAILED,HAIR TIED WITH A GREEN BAND,HAS A PINK STAR EARRINGS ON HER LEFT EAR, GIVES THE HECK CARE CHAO AH LIAN ATTITUDE BITCH SPOILED OUR MOOD. SHE SERVED US THIS BAKED PASTA WITHOUT TELLING US WHAT IT IS. SO JAN ASKED HER. SHE JUST SHRUGGED HER SHOULDERS. MEL ASKED AGAIN AND SHE SAID "I DON'T KNOW" AND WALKED OFF. F YOU BITCH. HAVING A BAD DAY? OR YOU JUST HATE TO WORK? THEN DON'T WORK DUMB BITCH. SHE EVEN ACTED LIKE SHE'S IRRITATED THAT WE ASKED HER. F YOU. I WANTED TO SCOLD HER BUT DIDN'T WANT TO MAKE THINGS WORSE. SO I COMPLAINED TO THE MANAGER INSTEAD BUT I DON'T THINK ANYTHING WOULD CHANGE CUZ THE MANAGER LOOKS LIKE HE'S ON HER SIDE. WHY DO I THINK THAY WAY? I SAW HIM LAUGHING WITH THE OTHER WAITER SHORTLY AFTER I LEFT. F THAT BLOODY OUTLET. I'M NEVER GOING BACK THERE. NEVER! TO MAKE THINGS WORSE,THE SALAD CAME LATER THAN BAKED PASTA AND OTHER PASTAS. WTF RIGHT? ALL MY FRIENDS' ORDER CAME EARLIER THAN A FREAKING SALAD WITH 5 CALAMARI RINGS. I DON'T THINK THE CALAMARI WAS CAUGHT AND MADE ON ORDER.I DON'T THINK THE VEGES WE'RE MORE DIFFICULT TO CUT AND CHOP COMPARES TO BAKES PASTAS AND SPAGS. WTH MAN. I WAS SO PISSE. I JUST HAD TO WRITE FEEDBACK. F YOU CWP PIZZA HUT! hooo...ok. my anger has been released. so after our horrible horrible lunch, we went to giordano. some nice tops. jan tried on one sexy green spag. haha. cleavage! or should i say 'cleawage!' haha. mel tried on a few but didn't work out. sha tried on a few only one suited her best. wah changed to the tops we bought for her. she looked so gorgeous. better than that dull red shirt she wore. not being mean, just helping her to be a better ermm.....girl. haha.i didn't try any cuz i have spent too much. just tooo much. then we went to metro. jan was searching for a new wallet. she wanted a guess wallet. i saw this white guess wallet. quite nice. it was 59.90. i hope tangs have so i can get staff discount and use my care card to earn points. hehe. then i was attracted to something. bought something i didn't really need. bummer. later on i bought a shirt for my presentation. im spending again. shit. went to 77th street. jan was looking for a school bag. saw a pretty nice brown leather bag. she was considering about it. so we went to take a few neoprints. pretty cute. haha. long time since i used the neopint machine. haha. jan made up her mind. got the bag. wnt to esprit. wanted to check whether there was anything i could get. saw a really nice bag. big enough to use for sch. lovely design. but the price was even more lovely. it about 150 bucks. 149.90 to be exact. a saw this jacket. it's really nice too. the price is much nicer. 139.90. wth. haha. can't stop thinking about the bag though. hmmm...we went to mac. took photos on my digi cam which i have yet to upload. hehe. fariha went to her tuition. sha and jan took the bus home. mel and i took the train. i went to my grandma's place for crabs! pepper crabs! i love it! haha. i had herbal black chicken soup too. weeeee. i love my grandma's place, food haven! haha. July 22 went to lime flea market. bought lots of eggs. hahaha. but not just any orinary eggs. they are hand crafted/painted eggs. you know, empty eggs shells, painted and have holes drilled into them to form pretty patterns. yeah. those kind. they were imported from europe. bought 6 of them. i spent 57 bucks just on those eggs. sheeesh. then i went to bcbg. wanted to pass karen the beaded purse she wanted to buy from me. (i was helping my uncle sell some nepal hand woven craft items like pncil cases, coin purses, pot holders and etc) she wasn't there so i went to tangs fcuk to look for her. nora was there too. both of them bought a coin purse and a pencil case. nice. haha. then i quickly made my way back home. had to attend my cousin's bday party. my dad, bros and grandparents went first. mom and i went later because she was done preparing yet. ans had to wait for my sis. thanks to her i got scolded by my dad times on the phone. the party was alright. good food. good wine. lots of kids. noisy kids. so nice to see my aunt. she's slimmed down a lot. haha. and i was pigging. why? cuz she made us eat. she didn't want to have any leftovers. haha. sis, mom and i also had to help her wash up the stuff. haha. it's ok lah. she's really nice and she's lil tipsy. no harm helping her. hahaha. party ended about 10. we were the last to leave. i helped bethany, the bday girl, to unwrap her presents and throw away the trashes. haha. then we left around 10 plus. my grandpa, paternal side, was tipsy. he crossed th road when there was a car coming and he almost got hit. wth. my grandma was so pissed with him. hahahaha. wait for the bus was so long that my grandpa fell asleep. got home. bathed. msged teddy. went to sleep. yawnz. July 21 sch was boring as usual. after sch i met teddy. we went to parkway for lunch. we wanted to celebrate our 8 months together but i have a talk given by ms pau from esprit. she covered on a lot of things. even stuff we learnt in pom and econs and etc. haha. th best part was she gave us 20% disount vouchers! can go shoppping. weeee! =] after we were released i saw janani with a guy. haha. she missedseveral of her bus just to sit at the bus stop to talk to the guy. hahaha. i saw her. hahaha. then i reached home quite late.pretty tired. watched ghost whisperer. slept late. hehe.=] hmmm...the rest of the week.....not sure. can't really rem anything. hehehe. i can't even rem what i wore 3 days back. sheeesh. my memory is really horrible.hmm....busy finishing up projects.some people are just so lazy and don't bother to contribute. haiz. ok. that's all i guess. it's so difficult to use latops. im not used to them yet. especially the highlighting part. argh. okok. gtg. going to watch my csi and project runway. hehe. =] okies. nite nite! see you people around! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARIHA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BETHANY! ok that's should be all. toodles! =] =ch!lz= cille i hope to catch you with my net before you leave mi 8:16 AM |
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