this blog belongs to me, what is here is for mine to keep,
memories which i want to preserve, to keep,to cherish,
and to love, feast your eyes on my tales, but warn you i do dare,
to be honest,to criticise and say what i desire,. my life is unveiled,
exposed, to you...
[about moi].
this garden belongs to cilliness
Age:`18
Born in:`Singapore
Grew up in:`Philippines
[loves]
`to dance
`to dream
`to draw
`to cheer
`to eat beef, potatoes and tomatoes
`to listen to music
`outdoor activites
`my family
`my friends
`Clique 5 + one guy
`Teddy! x]
[Searching for]
`True Love
`the real me
`peace and rest
[The threads of my net]
.im a girl who nobody knows.
.nobody knows the real me.
.nobody knows who i really am.
.living another person's life.
.a soul in another body.
.wanting to break free.
.like a butterly tangled in a net.
.i never dared to break free.
.afraid of rejection.
.always wearing a mask to fit in.
.so stressed up.
.i want my life back.
.one thing i am sure of.
.i love my family.
.love them more than i love myself.
.i love teddy, oh yes i do.
.miss my old friends.
.miss the memories.
.miss my old life.
.miss the old times.
.when i was free.
.when i could let my hair down.
.when i could be just me.
.torn butterfly.
dont leave me [alone again]
[people in moi net.]
[links]
Adele
AiZat
Annabelle
AqhARi
BenEdiCt
cHaRmAiNeX
Cheng Earn
CheRine
EuGene
HaFidZ
HuiShi
JaNAnI
Janice-LiLing
Jillian
Ji ShEng
Joel
Ju Lin-GreenAngel*
KoOnz
Kt
LyU-sis*
Marcus
MayguSs
MelIssA*
MelIsSaLiNg
NeLsoN
RoNg Hua-Uncle
RongYao
Sarah
Stephanie-YanLing
WanQian
WeiJiE
YiBiN
Zuraida
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[moi]
Friday, August 11, 2006
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| hey people! so sorry i have not been updating. been busy. i have not been visitng your blogs too. hehe. busy...and someone is also hogging the laptop lah...hmph...haha... i am unable to post the presentation pics...so..go check it out on my friendster instead. =] hmm.. ok. let's wind things backwards again. easier for me to recall stuff. =] wednesday [august 16] i was a little late for econs. traffic. don't ask me why. there's suppose to be no traffic. haiz... anyway. got my coursework grade. my 60% is a B+! weee!!! haha. i was so happy our econs project was an A! we worked hard on it. im still happy even if it was a borderline A. it's an A! hahaha...took a lot of time to do it! phew...=] went to the food court opposite sch to eat. fishball noodle was good. the fishball are huge man! twice the size of original fishballs. not those tiny ones. the normal ones. haha. teddy walked past our table. suprised he was out eating too. haha. foudn out he ended sch early. haha. then annabelle, hui shi, sarah, adele and i waved at him. he was quite embarrassed. like duh. 5 girls waving at you infront of all your friends! haha. they wanted to hear him speak. haha. but he didn't say much. sorry to disappoint you girls. =] teddy waited for me. then we went to parkway. went to buy nair's gift carrier. really cute. haha. hope you like it you african! =] sent me home. then he left. sigh. tuesday [august 15] got my pom coursework grade back. got a b. not bad. good enough. =] but was still disappointed about my project mark. argh. got my marketing grade back too! i am so happy!!! it was an A!!! haha. weeeeeeee!!!! =] i didn't expect our project t be so well. =] wahahahahahahaha!!!! =] monday [august 14] got my csa coursework grade back. it was a C+. oh well. better than a D. i just need to work hard for my exam and try my best to get a B. whoooo............ sunday [august 13] i was such a pig. slept till 10 pls. ate breakfast. fell asleep again. ate lunch. watched ndp. couldn't spot shahrul!!!! hmph!!!! i have not see him for quite a while. miss him lots. in a friendly way. don't get the wrong idea. he's a good friend and senior. he's in tp too! =] but have no luck in bumping into him. =[ oh well. went back to mp around 4 plus close to 5 with sis. printed out the work i needed. watched tv. darn. im suppose to study and revise for exams!!! argh..mel you're not the only one who needs help. haha. saturday [aug 12] woke up early. did some econs and management work. watched tv. went to meet julin at orchard. she needed to get some stuff. then we went to my grandma's place. we're going for some dinner. you know, those you during the 7th month, with the auctions and all. passed the lipstick to my grandma, she was happy. wanted to pay me but i declined to accept any money from her. =] we took pics together and with my grandma at home. julin was cam whoring with my phone. eee...yucks! hahahahahahaha!!! kidding.......went to meet my other relatives at the bus stop.by the time we got there and when the food was served i was about become a hungry ghost myself. so hungry.........im such a pig..haha... oh...i forgot to mention this bloody 40 plus year old pervert who kept staring at julin, juyee and i. so disgusting. he knew we knew that he was staring at us but just kept on staring. asshole. watch out ah. lucky i didn't see you dick standing or i would scream "PERVERT!" even when he was at the door preparing to alight he still turned around and kept looking! bastard! after he got off he still continued to stare! argh! what an ass! he deserves to fall into a canal and get drenched in sewage water! asshole. hmph! okok. the dinner was alright. saw the ah lian who kept staring at me and ju at last year's dinner. her 'biao ge' was also there. ugh. she's so puny...i could just kick her and she could fly all the way to malaysia...(im not that ambitious) =] food was ok. good enough for me. drank lots of orange soda and carlsberg. haha. julin was scolding me for drinking too much orange soda. can't help it.the food took so long and the auction was irritating me..." go pa, go pa, go pa, go pa, go pa, go pa, go pa,wu bai kuai, wu bai kuai, go pa,go pa, go pa, go pa,wu bai wu bai... go pa," go pa is 500 in hokkien..if i remembered correctly... so irritating...haiz...then the dinner finally ended...went back to my grandma's place..ju stayed over..went to bathe..fool around with ju in the rm while the rest were aslepp..silly juju bully me...hmph...........and she was busy talking to her.................................................................................................................................................................... ..........................friend......=] friday [august 11] teddy wore a formal shirt today!!! haha. he looked so cute in it. =] oh btw. for those who don't understand why i call him teddy is because i don't want his mom to find out. cuz there is a spy out there.......grrrrrrrrr....... tutorial was short..ok...not bad...went to tm for lunch with adele and sarah. had beef noodles. my fav. haha. walked around for a short while. went home. waited for teddy to msg me. met him at my bus stop.went to town. supposed to buy min min's bday pressie. but found ut it was gigantic and 199 bucks. called my mum, she called uncle brian. he said don't buy that, he'll get the idog instead. that gift was too ex for an 11 year old. haha. saved me the trouble from carrying a big box. but i felt bad i made teddy walked all the way to forum in his hot outfit. sorry darling... then we went to paragon. went to confirm my order for the papillio sandals. it was unsuccessful so i had to order myself. my staff card still not ready. karen may transfer to another boutique when i return to work. sob sob. i'll miss her. she's really nice. ='] went to tangs. bought my grandma a new lipstick. clinique lipstick. ill pass it to her on sat. =]. went to wisma. had fried fish bee hoon.the fried fish bee hoon there is good. no fishy smell. =] he paid for the dinner. so nice. so i bought the drinks. =] he wouldn't let me pay for anything but i will feel terrible if he pays all. yup. went to aldo. saw a nice pair of heels. it was 50% off. wee! haha. but still ex..for me. i don't usually buy such expensive heels. i don't wear them often. but the design is so nice. can't help it. =] was pondering whether to buy or not for a long time. so i dragged poor ol teddy to far east. went to every single shoe shop to find a nice alternative but to no avail. saw hui shi though. haha. =] i tried on one round front shoe and looked really sucky on me. ugh. just tried it for fun. haha. so i went back to wisma. bought the pair. i kept apologising to teddy for dragging him around..hehe...sorry darling...... thursday [august 10] only had marketing today. csa was online lecture. after sch the class went to mac for lunch. teddy came too after his presentation. =] adele and sarah were trying hard to here him speak. haha. patience dearies..mel and mei qi (my 2 good friends) waited quite a while to hear him say a complete sentence. =] haha. teddy and i went to parkway after lunch. i fell asleep on his shoulders..they are just so comfortable...i could fall asleep on them anywhere anytime...haha =] sorry to make those singletons (hope that's the right spelling) out there jealous... x] i got my new nalgene bottle. took me a long time to decide which one to buy.hehe. sorry teddy. bought bubble tea. weee. haven't had it for a long time. =] wanted to go to the each and enjoy the scenery but it looked as if it was about to rain. argh. so we sat at the shelter near the underpass to the beach. quite windy. not bad. but it didn't rain. argh! oh well. we just chatted for a while. then he had to go already. he sent me home. kissed goodbye. miss him already....=[ wednesday [august 9] supposed to be a good day turned out not so good. well, for the earlier part of the day.....we were all ready to a have a wonderful trip to malaysia...but my sis was still out, has not returned yet...everyone was waiting for her...we wnated to leave already or else we'll be late bt granpda still wanted to wait. but wait also no use. when she came back she found out she lost her passport. i am still trying to figure out why she brought it out...ugh......... luckily we arrived on time. i was still a lil sleepy...haha. went to have breakfast first. went to fruit farm/ honey or bee farm. bought royal jelly. hehe. suppose to help me with my hair and complexion. hehe. went to the mango farm. they say their honey mangoes are heavenly. so my mom bought 7 kg of honey mangoes. and i had to carry them home. heavy hor. and my arms were still aching from the badminton game! not to mention my legs and my body, still aching from that run! ouch. had a huge feast for lunch! we had butter-fried lobsters, pepper crab, wild pig meat, soup, vege, fruits, herbal chicken, duck, and fried oyster with egg.i didn't eat the oyster and egg. smelly. i don't eat oysters. ugh. unless it's frsh and it has lots of lemon juic and tabasco sauce and small enough for me to swallow, NOT CHEW. hehe. =] quite a big feast for a tour package of $48 per head! and this cost includs the dinner too! so wonderful! =] after lunch my one of my uncles bought yellow rambutan. it was so sweet and juicy! ooh i was eating like a pig! haha. so delicious! haha. then we went to shop for the biscuits and stuff that they say are ice. my mom bought a few. had herbal jelly with pearl powder. nice. went shoppping. mom bought my bros a pair of sandals, grandma bought a pair of shoe. i wanted to buy a pair of 3/4 jeans but their small size was still too small fo me. i guess my butt's too flat and small. all thanks to julin and the other notorious cousins who slaps my butt for their past time. thanks a lot. then we head for dinner. dinner was a huge feast too. fried noodles, fried chicken, pig trotter, vege, fishcake you tiao, drunken prawns, fish and fruits. not bad. i felt like such a pig! haha. ate so much. then we head back to s'pore. went to the tuas terminal, woodlands was too busy. there was a traffic jam in malaysia so took us a long time to reach s'pore. working day mah. was really tired when i reached home. oh golly me. every inch of my body was in pain. sob sob. ='[ tuesday [august 8] today i have achieved something really great. (well it is great to me hehe) I MANAGED TO RUN AROUND THE ENTIRE BEDOK RESORVOIR! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! =] haha..i was so happy lah. i ran with adele, sarah, swee siong(keong) and jian hai. it was big achievement. haha. eh. come on. must give me credit. i have not run for a long time ok. like 10 months ago? haha. BIG ACHIEVEMENT INDEED. =] well at the beginning it was alright..everything was running smoothly. it was after the point after the toilet/ drinking station where i started losing it. sheeesh..shouldn't have stopped. i was running...jogging..brisk walking...jogging...running...jogging..brisk walking....and it continued like that until the irritating pebbles went into my shoe! argh! what a nuisance. now i have blisters. hmph. had to stopped to remove the pebbles then can continue to run. phew. did 5 push ups at the end. hehe. was dragging my feet back to the library where the kind souls, who offered to look after our bags, are. haha. thankies. =] went to cheers. bought a nice cool drink. changed. then went to meet teddy. =] i was really exhausted. . . . . . . . . . . . .but i still need to rush to my grandma's place to stay. next day we're going to malaysia. had a good dinner there. watched csi. went to sleep...oh sweet bed.... monday [august 7] played badminton with the class today. haha. so fun. that chong wei made me run for my life. argh! now my right arm is aching. sob sob. but he's pretty good. jian hai and keong too. haha. played till like 4 plus? rested. chatted with hui shi. then we walked to the bus stop. teddy met me there. he sent me home. =] oh another thing. FINALLY OUR PROJECTS ARE OVER!!!! WHOOOOOOOPPEEEEEEEE!!! =] we rushed like hell ok. so stressful. still adapting to poly life. needs lots of self-discipline. even chameleons need time to change to the colour of their environment. =] BUT our exams are coming. oh crap. one after the other. so sickening. haiz. when will it end????!!!! end of this month....ooohhhhhhh.... alright then that's sums it up i guess. GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EXAMS!!! WORK HARD FOR YOUR As!!! STUDY HARD!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!! to my dear mel and julin. chill. don't give yourself too much pressure. it won't help you get the grades you want. ok? smile! and breathe! =] to my dear adele. work hard for this exam so you can change your current grade to abetter one! don't give up! you can do it! to little bro chong wei. so what if you're taking sup? like what we said, take it as an advantage. you have more time to study and prepare for your exam! like jian hai said, take it as a lesson to be learned. MUST always come for tutorials!!!! i guess we still need to give you 100 alarm clocks. sigh. to my dearest teddybear. you can do it! believe in yourself! work hard ok? no matter what i will always be here for you! =] alrightie then. that's all! tata!!! take care people! your health is important too! stock up on your brand's chicken essence! hehe. =] =ch!lz= cille i hope to catch you with my net before you leave mi 10:19 PM |
butterfly [dreams]
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