this blog belongs to me, what is here is for mine to keep,
memories which i want to preserve, to keep,to cherish,
and to love, feast your eyes on my tales, but warn you i do dare,
to be honest,to criticise and say what i desire,. my life is unveiled,
exposed, to you...

[about moi].

this garden belongs to cilliness
Age:`18
Born in:`Singapore
Grew up in:`Philippines

[loves]
`to dance
`to dream
`to draw
`to cheer
`to eat beef, potatoes and tomatoes
`to listen to music
`outdoor activites
`my family
`my friends
`Clique 5 + one guy
`Teddy! x]

[Searching for]
`True Love
`the real me
`peace and rest

[The threads of my net]
.im a girl who nobody knows.
.nobody knows the real me.
.nobody knows who i really am.
.living another person's life.
.a soul in another body.
.wanting to break free.
.like a butterly tangled in a net.
.i never dared to break free.
.afraid of rejection.
.always wearing a mask to fit in.
.so stressed up.
.i want my life back.
.one thing i am sure of.
.i love my family.
.love them more than i love myself.
.i love teddy, oh yes i do.
.miss my old friends.
.miss the memories.
.miss my old life.
.miss the old times.
.when i was free.
.when i could let my hair down.
.when i could be just me.
.torn butterfly.

dont leave me [alone again]

[people in moi net.]

[links]

Adele
 AiZat
 Annabelle
 AqhARi
 BenEdiCt
 cHaRmAiNeX
 Cheng Earn
 CheRine
 EuGene
 HaFidZ
 HuiShi
 JaNAnI
 Janice-LiLing
 Jillian
 Ji ShEng
 Joel
 Ju Lin-GreenAngel*
 KoOnz
 Kt
 LyU-sis*
 Marcus
 MayguSs
 MelIssA*
 MelIsSaLiNg
 NeLsoN
 RoNg Hua-Uncle
 RongYao
 Sarah
 Stephanie-YanLing
 WanQian
 WeiJiE
 YiBiN
 Zuraida
 .

[moi]

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

hey people! been a long time since i blogged. hehe. busy. sorry. =]

work has been alright. all the same.

sunday went to visit my great grandpa. his 90 over years old. he's really fragile. poor thing sprained his ankle. it's all swollen. and the skin looke very very thin, thinner than paper and his memory is failing him. he can't recognise his own daughter, but he remembers their names. haiz.
anyway, my mom, sis and i go there and do what we always do with the rest of our relatives. play blackjack. haha. it's so fun. i won quite few bucks. weeheee! haha.=] going back next sun. haha. weeee...

we didn't stay for dinner with them, we went back to my grandma's place for dinner instead. she cooked mutton curry!!!!!!!! yummmmmmmyyyyyyyyy!!! i love her mutton curry. it's spicy and so full of flavour. i finished one big bowl of curry. hahaha. damn i was full. lucky i controlled myself or else i would go home feeling uncomfortable. haha.

monday i met up with mel at the guys. we went to bukit timah there for dinner. finally saw shahrul. haven't seen him for a long long long time. man he looks exhausted. all that security duty and trainings. i felt so bad that i took his rest time away from him. oh yeah. and mel and i didn't know it was ben's bday. haha. so sad. haha. the guys were really funny lah. but got one point mel n i just wanted to doze off. haha.

after dinner they wanted to play pool. so i tagged along. yes i do not know how to play pool. haha. so i just watched them. nel and seng are pretty good. ben, he's just lucky. haha. too bad i didn't get a chance to see the devil play but there will be chances in the future...............i hope.

we left about 9. i was thinking, shit im going to miss ANTM! crap. haha. took the bus, reached my grandma's place about 10:30. whoopee! still have 30 mins of the show to watch. haha. but i missed out the challenge where they have to pose with crystal decorated roaches. man. that was fun. haiz. oh well. watched grey anatomy. msged teddy. slept at 12. hehe.

woke up at 5 am. went back to sleep. woke up at 7 am. went back to sleep. finally got my ass off the bed at 8. hahaha. accompanied my grandma to the market. she was going to buy lots of stuff. i can't let her carry them all by herself. no way. had roti prata for breakfast (got curry again) haha. met teddy later. i was so happy i could finally see him. spent quality time together for 4 hours. i just love him so much. =]

so now im here. brooding about that 'extra work'roche wants me adele and sarah to do. argh. he's really out to get us. haiz. but i still can't wait for the chalet! haha. yay! =]

=ch!lz=
cille

i hope to catch you with my net before you leave mi 7:20 AM

butterfly [dreams]