this blog belongs to me, what is here is for mine to keep,
memories which i want to preserve, to keep,to cherish,
and to love, feast your eyes on my tales, but warn you i do dare,
to be honest,to criticise and say what i desire,. my life is unveiled,
exposed, to you...
[about moi].
this garden belongs to cilliness
Age:`18
Born in:`Singapore
Grew up in:`Philippines
[loves]
`to dance
`to dream
`to draw
`to cheer
`to eat beef, potatoes and tomatoes
`to listen to music
`outdoor activites
`my family
`my friends
`Clique 5 + one guy
`Teddy! x]
[Searching for]
`True Love
`the real me
`peace and rest
[The threads of my net]
.im a girl who nobody knows.
.nobody knows the real me.
.nobody knows who i really am.
.living another person's life.
.a soul in another body.
.wanting to break free.
.like a butterly tangled in a net.
.i never dared to break free.
.afraid of rejection.
.always wearing a mask to fit in.
.so stressed up.
.i want my life back.
.one thing i am sure of.
.i love my family.
.love them more than i love myself.
.i love teddy, oh yes i do.
.miss my old friends.
.miss the memories.
.miss my old life.
.miss the old times.
.when i was free.
.when i could let my hair down.
.when i could be just me.
.torn butterfly.
dont leave me [alone again]
[people in moi net.]
[links]
Adele
AiZat
Annabelle
AqhARi
BenEdiCt
cHaRmAiNeX
Cheng Earn
CheRine
EuGene
HaFidZ
HuiShi
JaNAnI
Janice-LiLing
Jillian
Ji ShEng
Joel
Ju Lin-GreenAngel*
KoOnz
Kt
LyU-sis*
Marcus
MayguSs
MelIssA*
MelIsSaLiNg
NeLsoN
RoNg Hua-Uncle
RongYao
Sarah
Stephanie-YanLing
WanQian
WeiJiE
YiBiN
Zuraida
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[moi]
Saturday, October 07, 2006
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| i've been really really busy this entire month. so sorry for the late entries. hehe =] ok, in my 2nd last entry i said i was going to blog about something horrible that has happened to my sister. sorry, i ain't going to expose it. i promised julin (my dear cousin) that i won't. so i'm not going to. i shall blog about my class chalet then. firstly, i want to thank kiong for his efforts to organise the class chalet and made sure all of us had sufficient food and drinks. THANKS KIONG! YOU ARE THE BEST ORGANISOR! =] [3rd October] 1st day of chalet met my class at tanah merah mrt station at 3:10. i was early, so were adele, yeo-koh, derrick, hui shi and qian han. we just chatted. catch up with what's happening. took the shuttle bus to the chalet. bloody bus driver didn't want to wait for us. ass. our bungalow was perfectly situated near the coast. we had a perfect view of the sea. just lovely. settled down. adele, hui shi and i quickly changed into our bikinis to swim while the sun is still out. just perfect. got up at 5 plus. bathed. played card games in the bedroom while waiting for the rest and dinner to arrive. we had pizza for dinner. i had hmm...2 slices? haha. duno. watched this old movie on hbo too. after dinner we went to bowl. we were getting bored. haha. my score was pathetic. i am so not going to say it. haha. but we had fun. right? =] went back to the bungalow after bowling. chong wei finally arrived. damn he's so tan. haiz. my headache started kicking in. it got worse after i watched V for Vendetta. but it was a nice show. why didn't she remove his mask? darn! couldn't sleep all night. end up listening to the rad and sing songs. only slept very very much later.... [4th october] 2nd day of chalet yawnz. woke up with my headache gone! yipppeeeee!!! =] drank milo. ate cup noodless i think. haha. later one wne tswimming and tanning. hooray for the sun! but before that it looked like it was going to rain. darn. haha. but the sun came out! whooopeeeee! =] the jacuzzi sucked man. the water was ice cold. bloody hell. and the life guards are there for nothing. can eat apple and do weird exercises. hahaha!!!! i miss swimming. it's so fun. can get a tan and shape up. haha. =] hui shi and sarah are really good swimmers. swim so fast. goodness. i was panting. i guess i need to find mel to swim again. she can make me swim 20 laps. haha. after i bathed i cleaned up the chalet. it was in a big big mess. used cups and half eaten chips everywhere. haha. someone has to clean it up and it was me. adele helped too after she was done bathing. haha. watched the stupid stupid money no enough show. wth. for the entire 10 mins they were singing and dancing. so freaking lame. made us wonder whether it is a music video or a movie. so made cw fast forward it. haha. the show was really lame lah. i couldn't take it. haha. but it was better than the shitty scary movie 4 or the date movie. bloody ass. not funny at all. i was cursing and swearing at it instead lah. idiots. wasted my time. haiz. anyway, after the movie i went to defrost the chickens. i am always fated to deal with the chickens. haha. i was happily sticking bbq sticks into the chix wings when suddenly a short malay looking guy walked passed the kitchen and knocked on the window. seriously i didn't realise it was roche after 5 secs when i saw the shoes. like wth. and i bet sarah and adele are laughing their ass off. haha. at first i didn't feel like talking to him but i had to. he called the 3 of us to a side and made us spill out what ever we had to say. i have to say we feel much better after that. haha. i ate a lot man. usually bbq a little can make me full, but this time, the food was just amazing and i just gobbled anything that was cooked. haha. the otah was marvellous, chix wing wasn't bad, sotong was fabulous, marshmallows were a hit, and the sweet potato was sooooo irresistable!!!! =] all thanks to our wonderful kiong. =] when my tummy was finally full and satisfied, i sat down and listened to the stories roche had to share. that idiot just had to rake up ghost stories. i was uncomfortable the entire night lah. ass. so freakky.....(and i bet julin is thinking "haiz..lulu ah...so useless..." right juls?) then unexpectedly derrick brought his friends over too. we were ok with it lah. they helped us to finish up the food. so moved into the living room. the entire class plus roche except derrick played truth or dare. so fun. haha. we dug out all the deap dark secrets.haha. =] roche's one was the most interesting. like duh. hahaha. but we promised we won't tell anyone. hehehe. our lips are sealed........=] roche left around 1 plus. close to 2. haha. then we cleaned up a lil more and went to bed. this time we knocked out earlier than the day before. with all that work, how can we not falls asleep? haha. [5th october] last day of chalet. got up early. packed our bags. had breakfast. then waited for the rest. rushed to catch the shuttle bus. i took the bus home from tanah merah. was really really tired. haha. got home, wanted to slep, but in the end didn't cuz i was quite pissed with my sis. anyway, i watched v for vendetta again cuz during the chalet it was kinda noisy, couldn't hear the entire conversation. hugo weaving who played V wasn't hot at all. some balding man. the guy who played the enemy of neo in the matrix. yeah, the one with the shades. shucks. no wonder natalie didn't remove the mask. V was more charming with that mask. i do not want to see the guy's face. hehe. oops. =] the rest of the days was back to work. work. work. work. but the bazaar was really fun though. my first time working at a bazaar. from 19 to 22 oct i was at isetan scotts which is actually in shaw house. 19 was setting up day so we started at 12 pm to supposedly 9:30 pm but ended at 10 instead.the rest of the days i started at 9:30 am to 9:30-10 pm. quite fun. we were kinda fooling around. haha.the dust was terrible. i was itching all over in less than 10 mins. haha. lots of pretty items. had my eye on a few stuff. a pair of paul and joe jeans, a pair of shorts, a pair of black pants, a brown tunic top which is so me and has pretty sequines sewn on it and last but not least a 3 way skirt/top. can wear it was a skirt, a tube or toga. and could even be a halter top. amazing ain't it? it's colourful, not really my type but hey, it's ok to change, but some things will remain the same, like what juls say, im so island-ish. haha. =] we had a good dinner at kfc. then started selling at 5 pm. crowd came in real fast. business was good in the first day. not bad eh? but i just can't stand some people. so barbaric. really really horrible. anyhow throw stuff. and some worse, don't understand the words maximum is 3 pieces for trying. kns. really wanted to scream at those idiots. especially that lady who acted like she's so classy and her husband or whatever her relationship is with that man, who hogged up the queu. made everyone so angry and drove away some potential customers. so what if she spent more than a thousand. it's not enough to pay for the loss of image, the spirits and our business. ass. i hate her for life. and that fat guy. so fat ah, later have health problems. karma will get them. oh yes it will. sch re-opened. i was late on the first day of sch. wth. haha. well, can't blame me entirely, i was tired! my body could finally rest. haha. 1st week of sch was arlight. but i stilll had to work and the books are getting more expensive. like wth. spare us a thought dude! we may have enough brains to get into a business course but it doesn't mean we have enough money to afford those darn books. haiz........ ok that's all for now. i shall talk about the other days another day. i am pretty tired. off day still never get enough rest. thank god we start sch later nowadays except thurs. horribly long day!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!! and dele and i are not in the same cds class. so embarassing. hahaha kk tc! toodles!!! we shall we shall have our xmas/belated halloween/dress up party during the upcoming hols! can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!! =] =ch!lz= busy butterfly i hope to catch you with my net before you leave mi 7:53 AM |
butterfly [dreams]
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