this blog belongs to me, what is here is for mine to keep,
memories which i want to preserve, to keep,to cherish,
and to love, feast your eyes on my tales, but warn you i do dare,
to be honest,to criticise and say what i desire,. my life is unveiled,
exposed, to you...
[about moi].
this garden belongs to cilliness
Age:`18
Born in:`Singapore
Grew up in:`Philippines
[loves]
`to dance
`to dream
`to draw
`to cheer
`to eat beef, potatoes and tomatoes
`to listen to music
`outdoor activites
`my family
`my friends
`Clique 5 + one guy
`Teddy! x]
[Searching for]
`True Love
`the real me
`peace and rest
[The threads of my net]
.im a girl who nobody knows.
.nobody knows the real me.
.nobody knows who i really am.
.living another person's life.
.a soul in another body.
.wanting to break free.
.like a butterly tangled in a net.
.i never dared to break free.
.afraid of rejection.
.always wearing a mask to fit in.
.so stressed up.
.i want my life back.
.one thing i am sure of.
.i love my family.
.love them more than i love myself.
.i love teddy, oh yes i do.
.miss my old friends.
.miss the memories.
.miss my old life.
.miss the old times.
.when i was free.
.when i could let my hair down.
.when i could be just me.
.torn butterfly.
dont leave me [alone again]
[people in moi net.]
[links]
Adele
AiZat
Annabelle
AqhARi
BenEdiCt
cHaRmAiNeX
Cheng Earn
CheRine
EuGene
HaFidZ
HuiShi
JaNAnI
Janice-LiLing
Jillian
Ji ShEng
Joel
Ju Lin-GreenAngel*
KoOnz
Kt
LyU-sis*
Marcus
MayguSs
MelIssA*
MelIsSaLiNg
NeLsoN
RoNg Hua-Uncle
RongYao
Sarah
Stephanie-YanLing
WanQian
WeiJiE
YiBiN
Zuraida
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[moi]
Monday, December 18, 2006
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| AAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yet another horrible... HORRIBLE day. freaking weather. i got drenched in the rain AGAIN! waited 40 minutes for the freaking bus! piece of shit! and the whole time had to listen to some choir outside tangs singing some christmas carol. in the beginning i thought they were the cuz of the rain to pour, but it subsided after a while, 15 mins later they stopped. 5 minutes after that this girl started singing some unkown song and IT STARTED POURING AGAIN!!! SHE WENT ON AND ON AND IT GOT HEAVIER AND HEAVIER! SHUT UP WILL YOU!!!??? it's not that i want to be some kill joy or something, it's pouring, people get fustrated, and it's worse when all the other buses comes except yours! argh!!! last saturday,i had this customer, i helped her reserved two dresses. one long, one short. i took her name and contact as usual, pasted on one of the hangers and taped both the dresses together. she even wrote down my name and i reassured her yes i am reserving both dresses for you. i learned from my colleague that she was upset yesterday, i was not around when she came cuz it was my off day. apparently, the short dress got separated from the long dress. my colleague who was serving her was not here the day before so she doesn't know which dress it was. knowing that the other dress she wanted was not reserved for her she was upset and said " why didn't that girl (me) reserve it for me? i told her to reserve it for me" bloody hell. i taped them together ok. so when i went back in to check the dress was together with another dress under another name. freak ass. i clearly remembered i taped both together and the long dress was in front of the short dress. i alreday have a suspect. she was always in the store room and she was always arranging the reservation rack. who else can it be? i was so pissed cuz i, in my opinion, developed a good relationship with teh customer but because of some fella who has itchy hands my name is on the bad list. thanks a lot. but my day today wasn't all that bad. finally saw my teddy. i missed him so much. haven't seen him since last wed. he accompanied me to have dinner during my break. passed him his xams gift. bought him a calvin klein wallet. he's current one was pretty old alreday. hehe glad he liked it. =] sigh. i duno when i can see him again. hopefully on the 23 or 24. he;'s leaving for thailand with his family on the 25. he'll be back only on the 29. i'm going to miss him so....who's going to msg me to sleep? sobs. well hope i am to busy to think too much about him. knowing that he's unreachable just bring tears to my eyes. haiz. sunday it was my off like i said earlier. i was at my grandma's place. stayed over on sat night after work which ended at 11 pm. wth. woke up at 8, accompanied my grandma to the market. yawnz. i was still half asleep. but i can't let her go alone. i'll feel damn bad. whenevr she says she's just going to buy a few things, most likely it would end up to be a lot of things. lucky she didn't buy fish. ugh. saw the familiar faces of the auntie who sless pork, but duno what happened to her husband, i think he passed away already. choi. then i saw the fruit stall auntie. she remembered me too. boy, how much time has passed. and the vege stall auntie is wei jie's mom. i didn't see wei jie at the market though. saw his bro and his mom only. haven't see him in a while. went back. had roti prata, which we bought from the market coffee shop, for breakfast. love the roti prata there. grew up eating it. i still rem the uncle. haha. then went back to sleep. haha. my bros and mom arrived. so noisy haiz. but i ignored them. continued to sleep till julin came. yawns. chatted. hit each other's butt, ate together, lie on the bed together and she stealing my fav pillow.. haha. just like the good old days. haiz. my grandma wasn't feeling well. poor thing. her blood pressue increased. ha bloated tummy, and gastric problems. doc said she was too anxious. she needs to stop worrying too much. these months had been hard for her. my great grandfather's condition is always fuctuating. she has to climb the over head bridge and walk quite a distance to the mt alvernia hospital.haiz. poor thing. she's over 70. i wonder how much her body can take. i wonder how she could take the blow when the time comes for my great grandpa. poor grandma. i must start praying for her and my great grandpa and put all my own stuff aside. haiz... =' i certainly do hope some people would start acting properly and stop making my grandma worry for them. they are big enough and should be sensible too. so stop making grandma worry! behave you age! if her condition worsens i will take it out on you! i will not give anymore chances to you! i love grandma very very much. if you do then show it! don't just say it! if you do anything to make her worry again i will never ever help you again. learn your lessons! GROW UP! alright i gtg. i need to work full tom. hopefully i can go home early tom. i need to finish up my cds hw and my part of the project. tc nite. =ch!lz= worrying butterfly i hope to catch you with my net before you leave mi 7:38 AM |
butterfly [dreams]
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